EXAM coming..

exam coming ar.but i aint studying just yet.suppose to come back to study(but i didnt).sigh.i juz knew that i wont study when im here BUT i juz want to come back.hehe.need to buck up and start studying.NEED TOO.HAVE TOO.omg.my life is in this circle.exam->studies->exam->studies.this will only end when i graduate(which is in another 3++ years.i think).i dont even know when will i graduate(i mean the exact time).haha.

anyway,i will starts exam on 5 jan and end at 10 jan.in only a week everything i studies for the last two months are all covered.gosh.scary.but hopefully i can go through it.cause i believe in life,everything happen in a circle.we are juz doing everything over and over again.BUT enjoy the process as it will better each time.trust me(positive thinking.wakaka)



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i'm finally HOME...

hurray.like the title goes "im HOME".finally.after a few weeks there finally im back.suppose to be a study week but whatever it is im darn happy.might starts exam once i go back but i will darn happy when i go back there.lolx.cause im longing to come back for so long.at least i can rest and everything.juz enjoy myself here or can i say again.but i still need to study.final around the corner(on 5th jan to 10jan).haizz.but i have my exam on the first and last day of the examination week(again.last sem and this sem is the same).sigh.but hey dun think too much.juz enjoy the moment i have here and i sure will study hard.my very best.gambatte neh.

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SANTA CLAUSE IS COMING TO TOWN!!!HOHO...

merry christmas.hoho.this year christmas is spent at cyber home.sad.i din went to anywhere except dinner at old town.sigh.spent my time watching stuffs that i downloaded.laughing all by myself.sms-ing.yeah.thats all.my christmas is spent juz like that.even though i dun really celebrate christmas BUT its still one of the day of the year that i enjoy.wakaka.anyway,im going back tomorrow.hurray.i cant wait for the day to come.hehe.BUT everything is dampen when i thought of the stupid thing i have done.damn sad wei.geez.hopefully i can manage to fix it tomorrow.praying hard to God now.plz.plz be mercy to me.




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sleepy...

its 3.20 am now.damn tired and i havent sleep cause im rushing the assignment that i need to pass up tomolo.and i can finally say im done with it.there are still a few that need to written but i will juz do it in class tomolo.hehe.really veyr tired and sleep.and tomlo got a 9am class.dead.but no worries.im going home on 26 dec.wakaka.




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3+1=???

do you know what does 3+1=??? means???ok.besides that equals to 4.for me there is another meaning behind it.that is MAHJONG.lolx.yesterday me and my roomie went to FB gathering.eat steamboat.wow.very very delicious and nice.i can feel the bond that we have.like laughing together.talking together.not bad feeling.should have more this type of gathering.hehe.

back to my mahjong topic.got a call that they kurang one kaki.so when i reach home at around 11something(pm that is) i have a bath and i head to the Star house.i played with the CEO of both Fernando Corporation and TQA and one GArfield(you know who you are if you read this).The start didnt play and i feel kinda bad cause we played at her house but she didnt get to play.but she teach Garfield how to play.hehe.playing until 3something and we have a crazy idea.we wanted to play the whole night.we all agree.and we play till 6am.omg.unbelievable.everyone is so into it that we do not wan to leave the table.lolx.my mum will say if my seriousness in playing mahjong can be put into my studies.hmmm.if only i couls.lmao.




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selfish peeps...

there are seriously some peeps that are very very pathetic and selfish.damn.even though we aint in the same line it doesnt mean that ya all wan me to die rite.BUT im afraid that they wan that.darn.like one of the lyrics that goes "i see your true colour".i really did see ya all true colour.useless and selfish peeps. f@#k off.but its never too late to see that.i did try my very best to help out but what the heck do i get in return.nothing but mocking.shit.i hate it man.but in this world there sure will be this type of peeps.unbelievable.i juz gonna live through it.trust me.i sure will.




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my lovely day is RUINED...

i forgotteb to update my blog yesterday because i CANT on9.thats why.so im making up by today.hehe.today was supposed to be one good day.extremely good day cause i skip class.wakaka.hmmm.but its totally ruined by someone.damn.its ad been a very long week.assignments and meeting(again).but got piss by someone.making me to look like a bitch that is so not understanding.the use of words and tone by that fella really make me piss me off.fuck off lah.pathetic.its totally ok that you wan to make me look bad.i dont mind cause im not really a good person either.wakaka.BUT it juz piss me off that fella misunderstand what im saying and turn it to make me look like a baddie.even though im not really a good person but i still not that bad lah."you see.i told you she will be like that".omg.its juz a very good intention but it become bad juz like tat.darn.haizz.really fucking piss me off.back off!!!



ps:thinking again,i dun really angry anymore cause i dont think its worthy at all:p




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still rushing...sigh...

posting again.i finally pass my part to my fren.but i truly believe i will be ask to edit them again.haizzz.very tired.cannot rest cause still got another 2 more assignment to go.sigh.then exam oso coming ad.damn.havent start studying oso.others have been very very hardworking.while me still lazing around.haizzz.will buck up cause I NEED TOO.but nvm.everything will be juz fine once i go home on 26dec.wakakaka:p



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rushing for assignmnet PART 2

till now i havent sleep(yet).juz finish one of my assignment.but i truly believe that i still got a lot of editing need to be done.sigh.still got a lot of stuffs need to be done.still got meeting.i still got 2 more assignment to go and the deadline is coming real soon.i havent even started yet.darn.i oso very long didnt do my tutorial ad.damn.im doom for good.hmmm.but nvm.u sure can finsish them in time.no worries.hehe.u sure can do it(words of encouragement for myself.wakaka).gambatte.btw,im anticipating the DAY to come when i can go back HOME:p

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rushing assignments...

im posting again.haizz.in the midst of rushing my assignment.a lot need to be done.googling looking for the stuffs that suits.omg.reading too many words till my head turning ad.oh man.my dateline will be tomorrow night but i have meeting again tomorrow.shit.damn.which means i need to finish my part by today.in another words,im not going to sleep early again.sigh.i so lack of sleep.wait till i go back melaka and will hibernate till i like.wakaka.

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hoho..

this will be the month that i have the most posts.hurray!!!lolx.hmmm.the day pass without i realising it.another long day.i got tonnes of assignment and home work need to be done.omg.im so dead.stop rushing me.i will try my best to finish up my part.i promise.i did try my best but ermm juz give me a little more.i promise i will do my best.

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F@#K oOF!!!

i juz realise(today i mean yesterday) that some peeps  juz come and find you when they need you.other than that they dont even bother to even talk to you.damn.i have those peeps around me.haizz.they are being sell fish(ya know what i mean) AGAIN!!!omg.very disgusting.unimagineable.i wanted to puke when i talk to them.geez.they juz piss me off.i hate those peeps man.shitter.darn.how can someone act like that???i mean juz like that???hmmm.can be really good towards u when they need ya and juz kick ya aside when they dont.or they can even act like they like you juz right on ur face.i hate those peeps even more.FAKERS.stop being that and stop acting in front of others.I HATE IT.they are juz being 'beaches' and jerks around me.i seriously wanna whack their head and wake them up.wtf(its been really long i din say this word but they force me.damn).juz back off.i hate YOU.fU@k 00F.

pS:another negative post but i promise it will be better tomorrow.wakaka.juz wanna release my dissatisfication

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another day pass where i dont feel emo...

another day pass.listening to mamma mia's(ost of the movie) songs,browsing the net for articles,watching horror movie,updating my bloggie.doing it all at once(im good in multi tasking).lolx.been a very very steady day.nt emo today even though it rains.the flash of the lightning and sound of the thunder is scary.its darn loud.until u can feel that i gonna hitting something.but i still feel the warmth that it brings.nt like the other day when im totally down and helpless.its going to be better;-)

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opss!!!

i didnt post for yesterday so im making up by posting 2 today.hehe.cause im damn tired when i reach home yesterday.another long day.tired like hell.but its fun:) everything is fine until i receive an sms that seriously piss me off.but other than that it is totally one fine day.hehe.

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another day...

everything seems ok.but there are some 'beaches' and jerks that piss me off.damn.wtf.they juz spoilt my mood.darn.looking forward for a very good day but it juz turn bad.haizz.i really wanted to whack them.shits.how can peeps be so selfish???omg.i oso got my finger lebam.omg.painful man.haizz.and presentation oso sux.darn.i really sux at that.omg.and tomolo is my real presentation wif sketch.damn.im doom for good.

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happy???

im asked to post every single day for the next 7days with lesser negative thoughts.hmmm.well.it started quite well today cause im happy:) no bad thoughts at all till now.hehe.but busy with assignments and presentation.apart from that everything is cool.BUT i seriously think that its difficult to stay positive all the times.maybe thats what i need to learn.i still have a long way to go to understand that but today is a good start to achive that.hehe.

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raining...

its raining heavily now.it makes me feel worse.i try not to be too depress but i cant help it.help me.anyone out there can give me a hand???i seriously need one now.i really wanna cry out loud but tears are not streaming down my face.i dont understand why.haizzz.

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EMO+DEPRESS

seriously not in the mood at all to do anything.thats why i skip class today.juz stay at home.and didnt talk much at all.i juz dont know what else to say or can i say who else can i talk too.no one.im kinda depress.i juz dont know what got into me.i juz feel like im all by myself.alone in a place that i never knew.hmmm.im seriously very depress and down.damn emo today.

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happy yet sad...

its a total mix feeling.i reach melaka on sat noon around four to five cause its damn jam.im so happy cause i finally manage to go back.home sweet home.hehe.when i reach home,the first thing i do is looking for food(even though i ad eat in kl.lolx).i walk up and down.from the living room to the kitchen's fridge.i ate chocolate and i got scolded cause i have sore throat.even though i got a scolding for eating that but im seriously very happy cause im finally home.wakaka.i very good cause i didnt went out.i juz stay at home.watching tv and EAT.lolx.i slept very comfortably and i woke up very late the next day(around 12 to 1).woke up and eat again(tats y im a pig.hoho).do nothing.i juz laze around.love it,

went out wif sin girl and xiao de on sun night(ling at jb while hoon out wif her frens).even though its raining but we still went out.haha.firstly we went to KFC(eat again.damn.BUT im happy.lolx) then we went to dataran's mcd to have mcflurry.hehe.then we went to EYE ON MALAYSIA but its ad very late and they are closing.sigh.so we juz sits in the car eating and fei.me and sin girl didnt plan to go back that early.we ask xiao de to fetch us to ozana(cause i dunno where izzit).we were unwinding the windows and let the rains hit our hand.its painful.the rains are like thorns.painful but a worthy experiance(we are insane).besides,me and sin girl were so stress that we shout from bukit katil till ozana(we did stop mid way to get some breath.lol).wow.nice experiance.its like letting everything out.whatever u dont like.whatever that bother you.everything juz gone.we like 2 emo peeps letting everything out(we are emo).we were thinking we might be thrown with stuffs cause we are disturbing keamanan waktu malam.hehe.but its fun.we really do crazy stuffs that night.

and times flies.its mon ad.i need to come back cyber(there things need to be done).omg.happy stuffs are short lived.damn.im so reluctant to come back here(im ad in cyber when i post this.sigh).what else can i say.nothing but feeling a bit piss when i reach here,haizzz.communication between peeps sometimes are so difficult to interpret.damn.i really wanna whack them.they never knew how i felt and starts making the conclusion im the bitch.juz fuck off lah.damn.im so pissed.leave me alone.whatever.i dont live to make others happy.I LIVE TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY AND TAKNG CARE OF MY FAMILY.others juz back off,thank you:p

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im all alone

i juz come back from my breeze walk.i've been walking for an hour or so.i've been thinking a lot.as im walking along the street listening to my favourite songs on my phone,im all alone.alone.i tend to love to be alone.alone in my own world.listening to the music i love.doing the stuffs i adore.but i juz dun feel it when im walking alone here in cyber.all i think off is only my family.i juz wan to go home(melaka) to be with them.the feeling of emptiness.lonesome.not everyone can feel it.and i admit that im homesick.im all by myself in the world i never wanted to be in but i have to.its been almost half year and more but i still feel this.imagine im gonna be here for another 3 years.unimagineable.when i gonna stop feeling this.am i such a baby to feel that???hmmm.no idea.if only someone can help me to answer that.


Alone
Living
On a
New place that are
Erratic



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fakers...

forgotten whether have i or havent i post one with this title.but anyway,i began to see properly some peeps are acting like that.totally disgusting.ewww.unbelieveable.why are there still fakers???why???why???why???i kenot accept it.juz like the name of my blog-JUZ BE URSELF.dont pretend.i hate it.especially when it happen in front of me.omg.i really kenot tahan.how can someone be a different person at a different time.never understand that.wearing the mask everyday in their lifes.oh gosh.if im the one wearing the mask,i will suffocate till i die.but they never will.when will they be who there are and never be afraid to show them out???hmmm.the ans will be only reveal when they woke up




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waves...

waves.do you know how waves is made???i juz google it and juz realize its not as easy as i thought off.all scientific terms.i dont really get it but i know how it is made.am i confusing you???hope not.i wrote tis when im camping at sg congkak.how i feel.here it goes...

i was sitting alone on the rock and day dreaming.everyone is busy.i duno what i can do.i mean nobody at our station so i cant help but too day dream.hehe.sitting there playing with the water.i saw the waves.pop up in my mind how waves are created.i dunno.sitting there thinking.realize that some waves are rough while some are smooth.just come up in my mind that one's life is like that as well.we go through good and bad times in lifes.when you go through some happy moments the you should enjoy the very moments.live happily at tat moment cause sometimes happy moments never come twice.BUT if you are facing the down part of your life,never be afraid.cause everyone have to go through that.its part of life.dont think that life is not fair cause you never knew who else have gone through the pains that you have.might even be thousand times worse than yours.you might even learn a thing or two there.you never knew.in one's life,there will be the ups and downs.nothing is perfect.its just like the waves.the happy moments will be the smooth part while the unhappy moments will be the rough part.but eventually it will flow to the ocean ant it will be calm again.

ps:i truly believe that everything happen for a reason.just embrace whatever happen whether it is good or bad.life is good.live it.lolx.



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feeling...

i was going through my frens bloggie.i realise that whatever you wrote here is what u feel at a particular point and nothing else.so i post this after reading the fella's bloggie.kinda feel sad for that fella.cause of what he gone through.but i believe that everything happens for a reason.do no matter whether the reason is good or bad.there is no way u change the reason but to accept it.dont not only live your life because of love.even though love is important but hey there are thousand of stuffs that are more worthy for you to care rather than love alone.



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short semester=dead meat

short semester really not my cup of tea.omg.im not really those can study everyday.i mean after class u wan me to face my book again??the ans is NO WAY.but during short sem u have to do that(BUT i didnt).if u dun i believe that u will sure be very stress when ur exams start.haizz.i sure will feel tat.i have tons of assignments need to be done.i have tons of homework need to finish.i have my mid term in week 4.omg.imagine that.u barely starts ur new sem and u need to face ur mid term ad.then final during week 8.in 2mths times,all syllabus need to be cover like ASAP.then u gonna have a very pack(i mean very packed) timetable.class from morning till noon.oh man.but ya noe wat im doing???watching dramas.watching game shows.watching watever i have in my lappie even though i might have watch them thousand of times.i juz dun wanna study(or can i say not in the mood to study.anyway it have the same meaning).and not forgetting i have lots of activities.they say im stupid but hey tats wat frens are for.when frens need ur help i cant say no.so i believe tat i din make any mistake in participating in them.at least im enjoying the moment.lolx.meeting new peeps even though i aint one chick tat are good in socializing.yeah.i will enjoy the present whether it is go or bad.u sure will feel better.



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painful but a happy experiance

how am i gonna start tis???well.we got to know that there was a water fall at the hutan rekreasi.we were told by the ice-cream seller.he told us that you just need to walk for 3km then you will see the water fall(LIAR).BUT we believe him and we start walking.omg.we walk for so long till the end of the road.no where else we can go.darn.we feel kinda cheated.but we meet 2 youngsters that told us that the water fall is across the river and we just need to walk up the hill.so we all really crossed the river and i got all wet(wear long jeans.haizz).and we started walking.kinda enjoy it at first.but we still didnt saw the water fall even though we've been walking for kinda long.another huge probz was there were a lot of leeches.omg.on our legs.darn.not really painful but its really very geli.imagine it moving around your legs.and dont forget that it also suck your blood.omg.very difficult to remove it and when it is gone,you gonna start bleeding.bleed damn a lot.like wow.imagine a small animal like that can cause you to bleed that much.oh man.really very geli when i think again.eww.but anyway it is an experiance that i can have in my life.cause you might not have the opportunity again i mean going through this when you are young rather then when you are old.lolx.it is a precious experiances.



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im back...

its been a long time since i wrote here.looking back,i onli wrote 2post during oct.damn.haizzz.no choice cause its exam.damn tense and stress.not going to deny tat im damn stress at tat point.so didnt wrote(in another words im so lazy to update.lolx).i still remember during my study week,i didnt study at all.not at all.i come back my hometown to watch tv and hang out wif my frens.damn useless.but at tat point i still dun feel like studying(ya noe wat i mean).if not till the last minute u dun feel the urge to study.i dunno.maybe im the only one tat feel tat.im usually a last minute person.i noe tat i will be stress like studying a few days(or can i say one day) before exam.i hate it but i still do tat.darn.hopeless.useless.lol.

when i study last minute den i will feel all those tense and i feel like i wanna break down.juz like anythime.the stress tat i feel.its unbearable.totally.i will be studying the whole day.omg.u cant do anything but facing the books onli.u cant do anything cause u dun have the choice at all.image u have exam in the afternoon and den the next morning u have another exam.shitto.how can u have time to study.i dunno.its like damn.u cant relax at all.after exam have to continue to study and u cant do other things.haizzz.

i still remember the time when i saw my exam timetable.in my heart i really wan to kill those tat fix it.i have continuous 3days exam then i have a rest for 4days.after tat i got another continuous 2days exam.den the saddest was that i will finish my last paper on the last day of exam(i mean my last paper is the day where all exams end.hopefully u understand wat i mean.hehe).imagine having exams continuously and those papers have to do lotsa excersice.gosh.my fren say tat its because ive not been studying during the normal day.ok.i admit tat i dun usually study on normal day except if i have my mid term.other than tat i will prefer to spend my times on dramas and series.its my fault to do tat.BUT how can anyone say NO to the latest hk dramas,supernatural,heroes,etc.maybe others can but i juz cant.i have to bear the consequenses WHICH is STRESS.

but im totally grateful tat during tat time,my sister gave a lot of encouragement which i think is totally important.and also not forgetting my buddy tat give me a lotsa encouragement too.wakaka.i totally believe tat a simple message can make someone feel better.i truely believe tat cause tat wat i feel when i got message of encouragement tat i needed tat much.ya know how precious is tat a simple sms during the times when u feel tat the world is dark and u r all alone(ok.im emo again BUT its a fact).its juz give u hope or can i say tat the sms juz tell u tat everything will juz be fine.it will be alright.i appreciate it a lot.hell alot.lolx.thanx a lot u guys.


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im really really sorry...

thousand of guilts.tats how i felt.why cant everything juz be perfect???i dun understand and i never will.like wat my sis told me "nothing is perfect and dont be such a perfectionist.cause u will be the one facing the stress".its true.tats wat i feel now.damn sad and tense and not forgetting stress(they all come together).im really sorry for wat happen. i seriously didnt mean it.i didnt do it on purpose.the more u say its ok,more guilty i feel.damn.i cant get over it.i really wan to cry.i really wan to.i cant hold on any longer.i wan someone to talk to and i cant find anyone.i very very very sad and down.wif all those exams and the things tat happen in between really taking the toll out of me.i really really going to break apart anytime soon.i really will.can anyone out there save me???i really need someone to get me through all these.i cant make it all alone.i really cant.i wan to scream out loud and cry out loud too.i really wan to.IM REALLY REALLY SORRY.



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damn sad!!!

damn sad man.i ad very sad wif my exams ad den now wan to come and say i very pampered.damn lah.a lot of my frens say tat.hello.i din force u.i noe tat sometimes i am damn troublesome.i dun ever deny tat.never.but hello.im oso very very independent ad leh.havent u ever seen someone even more pampered than me.i like something doesnt mean i have to own it.so wat if deep in my heart i wan tat.but i didnt force anyone to buy it rite???cmon.its not wrong to have a dream.so wat if i can onli dream.nothing wrong wif dreaming of owning a thing tat u love.dar.dun u dare to tell me tat deep in ur heart u nvr dream of owning a thing.dream can be realised.maybe not now but in the future u cant deny tat u might own it then.so wat.i can have it when im working.i wont force anyone to get them for me.STOP SAYING IM PAMPERED.I AM NOT.i wont ask for anytthing anymore.i can survived by myself.I AM NOT PAMPERED.NEVER.DUN EVERY SAY TAT AGAIN.


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wanTed t0 be aL0ne!!!

i wrote tis post wif the same feeling for the post 'the facts are hard to accept'.so tis might be another emo post.ppl are different in alot of ways.some peeps wan to be with their frens all the time(they cant live without their frens) or some can be friendly but sadly they do not have true frens(meet one).

ALL I WANT IS TO BE ALONE.u might say frens are important and im not denying tat.i need frens too but there is times when u wan to shut urself out from the world.tats wat i feel at times and peeps might think tat im angry or im juz being emo.cmon.juz because i need time for myself aint means im bad moods or im being bitchy to be in bad moods.omg.damn shitter.i do not or can i say i dun have to tell u everything tat happen in my life(every details).u dun tell me everything as well.cmon.u will get suprise if u knew from someone else something dat i oso noe then u will like say i din tell u(got wat i mean rite???).shitter.im damn forgetful.not going to deny tat.but again its my fault for not telling u wat happen.ya ya ya.my fault.

u nvr think how i feel when u all talk damn softly in front of me and acting like a 'mice' seeing my stuffs.wtf.i dun even care wif u all but doing tat to me.damn pathetic.and damn shitter.seriously wtf man.i hate it.how can they be like tat.darn.i really wan to confront them but aint doing it cause if i do it means more trouble.damn.so writing in blog is the best place to show wat i feel at times.i seriously hate peeps tat take u for granted.will always say tat i din tell her tis and tat.din discuss wif her.when we discussing u the one dun wan to listen den like to say we make decision without informing u.i really wan to slap and whack u at tat point(everytime u say tat).u can be like nothing happen at a point then u will brought out the issue again when u feel like it.omg.U JUZ LEAVE ME ALONE.i dun owe u anything and dont be a bitch in front of me.dun wear the fucking mask and be different ppl at different times.and another thing is tat its ur business tat u dun have frens.LEAVE ME ALONE.PLZZZZ.


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the facts are hard to accept...

im seriously very very very down today.i wake up wif the thought of being in THE PRESENT(will post bout tis book when i re read it again).but it aint going my way.omg.wake up and feel absolutely not happy at all.all those stuffs tat happen.its taking the toll out of me.i juz wan some help(i got it later.thank GOD). but it make me look bad for asking them to do stuffs.geez.so its my fault all over again.im damn tired.seriously.

i manage to chat wif my 'mum'.hehe.she is someone i knew a few yrs back.she is one cool 'mum'.haha.the very first time i saw her was when im working as promoter at parkson(every malaccan should noe this place).she start the conversation(im not good in starting one) and the next thing u noe she become my 'mum'.lolx.i enjoy every moment i spend wif them at the fair.i gred tat particular fair as the best place i ever work before(beside fos-i love when i wif the staffs and not during working time.have to be particular in tat).back to chatting wif my 'mum'.she is very tense actually.from wat she wrote in the msn shoutout and her messenger blog(juz realise there is something like tat).she was damn kesian.wif her work and her LECTURER(bluff peeps money).omg.she been through a lot(i think).even though she din tell me anything but she is seriously not happy as i first knew her.come to my mind now wandering when myself work.will i be like my 'mum' or even my sis???they are damn tense.omg.do working life tend to be like tat???i duno.i cant ans tat now cause i dont noe.im scared but worse is coming up

i might not noe wat will happen when i work in the future BUT wat i should worry now is my studies.i realise tat my mid term marks and assignments is out and i kinda sux at it.omg.im seriously seriously very very sad when i saw 'it'.i did try my best on it.i did.i juz duno y tat happen and im sad.my coursemate ask me where u do wrong.I DONT KNOW.i seriously do not noe.i juz wan someone to give me some encouraging words cause i REALLY REALLY NEED ONE.i will call my sis later cause i noe she will make me feel better.did i do badly cause i din study???or i din pay attention???or i juz SUX at it???i dun noe and i dont feel good.

i should be happy cause i will be going home tomolo BUT the sadness of knowing it is making my mood swing.ANYONE OUT THERE CAN HELP ME???JUZ GIVE ME A HELPING HAND CAUSE I REALLY NEED ONE.sob sob.i wanted to cry but not now.i will when im all alone.i really wan to let everything out but im holding back.i will let everything out when i go back melaka.i sure will.


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yummy!!!

we made these for our senior.look very PRO rite???its even better when u eat them.lolx

was planning to do my home work today BUT promise my fren will be doing sushi today.so went to her house and start doing them.it not really that hard but seriously need technique to make it look nice and easier to cut.i did a few and darn proud to show it out.lolx.it delicious.usually went out to eat sushi but doing it myself???never thought of it.yeah.its cool.

look messy???we did clean them up.lolx.

we prepared one container for our coursemate that went to play badminton(how good we are to prepared food for them) and another container for my senior.she is a great senior.help us alot in our assignment.she spare her times to help us and look through our work.thanx a lot.she feel paiseh to take the sushi but i told her that its a way to show our appreciation for her.she took them and mention tat its delicious.yummy yummy.haha.i eat until very very the full.oh man .until i have difficulty on walking back to my house.gosh.

we went out for dinner as well today.talk a lot of crap.lolx.we juz love to talk nonsense.sometimes it happier to do tat rather than being sad over things tat u cant change at all.y bother all those peeps tat r so obsessed wif themselves.

ps:starting to feel my post to be a little toO anguish and will tone it down wif more happier event(if there is any).forgotten bout one very important stuffs.IM GOING BACK NEXT WEEK AND MY MUM WILL COOK EVERYTHING I WANTED TO EAT.hurray.

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peeps...

ermm.how am i gonna start dis???have u ever meet someone tat can be good to u at times and juz ignore u the other times???or they juz pretend tat they have nvr noe u???OMG.i think tat others face tat too rite???cmon.admit it.they can be so good till u believe tat we are frens.and peeps can be another person in juz a nick of time.how could they ever i mean ever change tat fast.wow.darn fast.havent meet anyone like tat???i meet them.i mean as a third party i see things.lolx.but its true.u can see things clearly when u r not involved in it.believe me.hehe.

peeps can be kind to u at times and be harsh the other times.they juz act like they are damn good wif u when there isnt anyone around.or they juz think tat u r a pain in the ass when they dun need u.yeah.there are those peeps.i saw those peeps(like i say,third party is always the best).ya ya ya.they treat u good(but remember onli at times).when its all over they dun even bother(at all).i mean wat type of peeps are they.they can be kind to u and another way around juz like tat.whenever they wan.gosh.i juz wanna squeeze them into tiny little papers and throw them away.soli to be tat violent. but those facts make me wan to do tat.geez.

they treat u well and juz a glance i mean only a glance they dun bother anything.haiz.tats sad but its the facts that i saw.i feel bad for those peeps cause i think tat they r onli wearing a mask.they wear it for their whole entire life.why cant those peeps juz be themselves???like wat my bloggie name after 'juz be urself'.i absolutely think tat its important for peeps to act like tat.it will be better for themselves as well as those around them.

ps:its onli a feeling i have when i saw wat happen.not specifying on anyone.but if u feel hurt i mean on wat i wrote then i think u need to change cause u juz might be one of those peeps.

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over...

its 11.05pm and i am relaxing rite now.unbelievable rite???believe it.for the first time weeks i manage to relax tis early and juz watch dramas and do stuffs i love.oh man.i miz it.damn a lot.tats y now i can update my blog.few days(i think) i din manage to update.my buddy like keep on asking me when im gonna update(update ad lah)???lolx.

i finish up my final assignment ad which is due on sept19(so early finish.abit tak biasa.lolx).not sure correct or not and need to ask my lec tomolo.finger crossed.hopefully wat we do is correct.u noe how hard izzit to finish AN assignment???geez.but my buddy oso very kesian.she got like thousand of assignment(im a bit over).seriously.a lots.oh man.do assignment till the wee hours.cant sleep.and have to face pc or lappie for like the whole day.damn.i ad
got four eyes and its increasing(in power i mean).haizzz.life.wat the crap.

even though i manage to finish my final assignment BUT my final is around the corner.omg.time flies like crap man.its juz like yesterday i juz start my new sem and now its final ad.oh man.and i got like bukit punya homework.ohhh.help.how am i gonna make it.praying very hard now.will be going back next week(hurray.im thinking of all those foods now.hehe).but i need to stay at home(like i will) to study for my final.sob sob sob.

now is the optimistic time: dun worry.u sure can do it.dun compare urself with others.comparing SUX.so juz do ur very best.believe in urself.u sure can.same goes to u too,buddy.hahaha.


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sleepy+tired = to how i feel now

tats how i feel now.its 9.15am and proud to say tat i didnt sleep the whole nite.omg.i've been rushing my assignments tat due today.TOTAL OF 3 ASSIGNMENTS TAT ARE DUE TODAY(yeah i mean today).sux.damn tired and my whole head is blank.im having headache rite now.gosh.unbeliveable.i stay up the whole nite for my assignments.im pig tat love to sleep and i make a HUGE i meAN a huge sacrifice.i sacrifice my beautiful sleep for assignments.unbelievable tat i can do tat.oh man.seriously very tired.later 11am got class and need to pass up one assignment.den need time to compile the whole stuffs.damn it.i really really wan my bed. i wan to sleep.sob sob.

btw,im going to the asylum and gonna stay there and do nothing.lolx.


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omg...

its 2.51 am and im still awake.noe wat im doing???assignment.yeah.sux dotz.unbelievable i still can update my blog???hahaha.need time to clear my mind.darn tired now and i cant think of anything anymore.my head is blank like a piece of paper.BUT i still have another question to edit when i dun even noe a single thing bout the ques.wat the F@#$ man.geez.i wana go insane ad.im going to the asylum soon if things continue to be like tat.lolx.but seriously darn tired like hell.y can peeps be more considerate in everything???dar.u have things to do and i dont???y dun u tell ur buddy how u feel instead of telling me???wont it be more better if u do tat.i noe y u dun wan to do tat.CAUSE U DUN WAN TO BE THE BADDIE.yeah.i suits the best for the role of baddie.in assignments or even in the house.its cool if ya all dun wan to take tat role.i dun ever mind to be tat.juz hate me.i dun care anymore and i dun give a damn at all.

i still have 3 more to go even after i finish tis.omg.wat a week.after that i have like a MOUNTAIN of homework tat i need to finish up.then later the final arrived again.SUX.i barely get over the feeling of the first sem final and now another one around the corner.gosh.seriously its taking the toll out of me.everything.peeps to things.oh man.can someone lend me a hand and help me to go through tis???i seriously need one rite now.

but its cool.i will get through it no matter how hard it is.all i need is some rest and positive thinking(yeah.law if attraction-i do keep tat in mind.lolx).some rest and everything will be fine again.finger crossed.


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back...

im back.hahaha.din update for the last few days cause im back in my hometown(dun get jealous) and seriously darn busy.assignment assignment assignment.till i wanna die ad.geez.got one assignment tat i need to pass up on fri and another 3(yeah i mean 3) that we need to pass up on mon.omg.and one of them i got the hardest question.oh man.i been reading the study case for like thousand of times.oh geez.finger cross.everything will be just fine.hopefully.

ok.back to wat i've been through for the past few days.i become a part time tutor.hahaha.unbelievable but believe it.i might not be tat qualified to become one but i did do my best.my lil bro say im good(yeah.onli trying to make me happy).lolx.and i go back hometown.hahaha.happy giler.go back makan then sleep.its a routine.darn.so enjoying back home.

despite all those happy stuffs there are still bitches that piss me off.not gonna say who are they cause i dun think its necessary to say it out here.BUT i dont owe anything to ya all.so stop acting like i owe u million or even trillions.damn it.i dun think i deserve it.im juz being kind to ask u tat.im not the one tat piss u off.so stop bitching in front of me CAUSE i HATE it so much until i feel like slapping u then man.fuck off lah.the other one oso act like i owe her millions.wat the heck.and yeah.when i forgot tell ya something,im at fault AGAIN.damn.peeps are forgetful man.if others is not then i aint going to deny tat im forgetful.so stop acting like its my job to tell ya everything.when u tell me things at tis points i might forget it minutes later.darn.my fault again to be forgetful.watever.i dun give a damn at all.BUT im gonna stress once and for all DUN BITCH IN FRONT OF ME.i aint those chick tat juz keep my mouth shut.

even though there are those unhappy stuffs but i still think tat im happy cause i manage to go back hometown and enjoy every moment of it with my family and buddies.lolx.


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wat happen???

i dunno wat happen actually.doing my tutorial ques for today i mean yesterday mid term.thought its ok BUT when i do the real test,i sux at it.yeah.seriously do.darn disappointed.haizzz.dunno wat happen too???but watever over is over.dun wan to think(but im still thinking).haizzz.try not to do tat in my final exam.wishing tat not to happen.

i got to noe IT.sux.i mean cmon.even though u might got better results than me but im proud tat i do it myself.rather like ya noe wat i mean.gosh.unbelievable.juz sux at it if u r not good at it.why do tat???oh man.but its none of my business.dun wan to discuss it after its over cause it hurt to noe wat silly mistake u do.geez.better dun discuss.yeah.will feel much more better.

dunno wat gonna happen but its over.juz live wif it.u have too and u need to.there aint no other choice.kinda tired after all this mid terms.but darn i still got like 5 more assignments to go.ohhhh man.SUX.SCREAM IT OUT LOUD.

BUT im going back tis weekend.will go and relax myself before i come back here and be in wars again.WWIII is happening soon.haizzz.nah my assignment,i die oso will die it out.BUT finals,i have no idea wat gonna to happen at all.then there will be WWIII.oh man.dun even dare to think of tat.

all negative thoughts BUT i noe things will be better.hopefully.lets hope so.


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nooooo.....

im back again.din update my blog yesterday so here we go...

mmu have a 3 days blood donation campaign starting from 26-28 aug.yeah.i went today but they dun let me donate cause i dun have enough iron.iron???she say it the foods i take.imm not on diet.even though i say i wan too but i still eat damn a lot.i ask my sis and she ask me a ques. "do ur plate eat more than u eat???" im like wat u mean.finally i understand tat.it means i dun finish my food.seriously its not because of diet.but its because i dun feel like eating.i mean im hungry but after the time past u juz dun feel like eating anymore(dun tell me u dun feel tat sometimes).oh man.so its my fault???oh gosh.okok.i will finish all my food next time.i promise i will.lolx.

but i do think that more peeps should go ahead and start donating blood.cause i seriously think it can help a lot of peeps tat need it.i noe the feeling of being scared(if i donate today,i only donate the second time).i noe it.the jarum like so thick.but for me its not really painful lah.i noe.different ppl are different.ppl think differently as well.peeps might not agree wif me.yeah.but i juz think its good tat we can help those in need.seriously.i think its important for them.so lets together try to help those in need(berpahala).lolx.

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finally...

i have not been updating my blog lately cause i cant online at home(i mean cyber home).finally i can on9 ad.hurray.BUT when i noe the reason why i cant on9 i almost fainted.it juz because of a tiny little winy probz and that prevent us from on9 for like days.SUX.at least it's over now.

its been a very tiring day for me.slept at around 2am tis morning and i force myself to wake up at 5.30am.oh gosh.i never woke up that early i mean never.i dun even do that when im in secondary.lmao.tired giler.the reason for all this started from sat nite when i cant even start on my critique assignment(need to be pass up on mon-today).i've been delaying it(cause i dunno how to d0-excuses-i noe that) and that make me work like siao po on sun.damn giler wei.really siao ad.i cant finish even half of it.force myself to think of watever points or juz like anything so i can put it in my critique.darn.im thinking wif a blank head.seriously not cool at all.damn tense but i noe its my fault for doing it last minutes(BUT I STILL LOVE DOING IT LAST MINUTES-exciting giler and its difficult to change).lolx.

i finally finish it pass it.OMG.FINALLY.its over.but sadly to say i still have 5 assignments coming up.which mean i still CANT relax.oh man.i juz finish comparing wif my buddy who got more assignments to do(you win).life in uni is onli surrounded by assignments,test and presentation(it FREAK me out).aikss.i think tats wat uni life is all about.

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pS: when i wrote tis post my mind is tired like hell and i felt sleepy.tats why i dun really understand what i wrote exactly in here.so sorry.

probz

reach home then got the news.SUX.another probz arise when the other probz is not solved.im seriously not worry bout the other stuffs.all i care and worry is onli bout u.wat gonna happen to me if anything ever gonna happen to u???i dun even dare to think of tat.im darn tired of everything but i still need to hold myself and put a brave face.so tat peeps wont be asking.but at times,im tired as well.u can say im the middle person.dun tell them.blah blah blah.dun tell them and u wan me to keep it.luckily u have someone to talk too but wat bout ME???i have to bear the sadness,tense of it???i cant tell anyone???it not fair but i will try my very best to help.all i can do to help i will definitely do it.anything.even stuffs i dun think i can handle.i'll say ok.let me take care of it.oh man.have u ever been through tat.tat feeling???like you r thr onli person in this huge world and wandering y this happen???i have a lot of ques tat i dun think can be given an ans juz like tat.juz an ans tat will onli make u happy but do not solve the probz.who can share those probz wif me man???yeah.now im emo.emo do not happen juz like tat.peeps cause it.surrounding cause it.experiances cause it.dun deny tat cause tats the facts.bearing all those 'things' are unbearable BUT i will definitely survive BECAUSE OF YOU.seriously u r very very very important to me.plz take care of urself.


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what happen???

starting to sleep late(yet again).haiz.another day where i wasted time again.wat i do???nothing to be exact.smsing,chatting,watching shows.okok.at least i finish up my ais homework.yeah.yeah.yeah.i onli do tat the whole day.i noe i wasted my times.but i juz cant control myself.if onli i have someone tat will or i say can make me study.haiz.but too bad.i aint those chick tat will be extremely hardworking even though others study.SO it useless.i still LOVE last minute study(which i noe its totally not good).haiz

okok.skip tat part.i have my dinner outside.and manage to watch the match between lee chong wei and lin dan.expecting it to be a tough match.cause lin dan is a good player and i believe lee chong wei is good too cause he beat a few good players on the way to final.so expecting to be a tense match.BUT fairly disappointing.maybe chong wei is under intense pressure to deliver.i dun think he play well.i mean i love badminton and i do watch badminton.seen he play before BUT i dun think he is up to his own standard today.so im disappointed.i mean its hard to reach an olympic final but everything juz dun go ur way.i dun expect the results to be like tat.cause i think he is way better than tis.but too bad.its not his lucky day.maybe in the next 4yrs.who knows.


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(tats the packet of tissue im talking about-nice rite???lol)

its 2.o5am.i juz came back and i juz finish bathing.oh ya i ate nasi pattaya juz now.unbelieveable.believe it.gosh.but got no choice cause i damn hungry wei.din take dinner leh.so muz makan banyak sikit.lol.

wanna noe y i come back tis late???cause i went to watch the inter-varsity song composing competition.yeah.kinda sad tat mmu din got first(they got third).but at least ya all got the favourite song(through sms).they r so cool.they gave me goosebump when they perform.like WOW.i love it.hahaha.especially the one singing.nice vocal.too bad the opening din go well cause his mic got probz.anyway i din regret going(at least).lol.yeah, they gave a packet of tissue wif a cool image on.its nice.hahaha.saw a lot of peeps.i mean those i noe BUT(there is a but) juz kinda weird.why do peeps juz chang.i mean juz like tat???can be good to u at times and ignore u the other times.oh geez.y there is tis type of peeps???dissapointing.

today i mean yester day is a long day.wake up at 12pm(long time din sleep tis well).then goreng telur and hotdog for breakfast or u can say lunch.lol.then michelle came over to do some home work(AIS-u gave me headache).she gave me a bottle of stars tat she make.very nice.thanx(hoepfully tats not my birthday present.lmao).okok.i aint tat materialistic man.i appreciate it a lot.going to my next post if i got any idea wat to write.anyway chill out.

(tats the bottle of star i mention.thanx a lot to the lead actress.lmao)

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how i feel...

its 2.06am rite now.i dun feel like sleeping so i juz continue writing,chatting,posting and creating a new friendster acc.haiz.juz got some probz wif my old wan so need to get a new wan.TOTALLY troublesome.

yeah.i get to noe things tat i dun think i should noe but i juz noe(the sentence is weird but hopefully u guys understand).i mean it aint a secret y afraid others noe wat u r doing???i hate liars.dun lie right at my face.cause its not cool at all.nvr will and not going to be.i mean u feel weird tat u din ask me???cmon.i aint those chick tat wan desperate attention.sad to say tis but i dun have the charm like u to attract.so dun worry.

watever.i dun give a damn at all.i noe why im here.at tis place.at tis very moment.i seriously understand and noe it.so i wont give a damn on things tat r not related to me.juz MIND MY OWN BUSINESS.like i say im a day dreamer and LOVE to live in a world i create myself.so i can survive tat.so no worries.


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TyPeS oF fRiEnDs

i wrote this when im in the class.yeah yeah.some gonna say im not paying attention in class but hey i dun even understand at all wat the heck she crapping in front.sorry to say tat BUT tats the truth.okok.back to wat im gonna write.types of friends.there a lot of them.i've seen it.the first wan is the typical hi bye types of friends.Or somes that pops up when they need ya help.ok.u might not have those friends but seriously i have those around me.

those hi bye friends will tend to fake a smile and juz greet(lousy actors) you or they will juz pretend tat they nvr saw u.oh geez.so lame.tats y i hate it when tat happen.we might not be the best of friends but we 'work' together before.ohhhh.they are such a pain in the a$$.such fakers r like the top of THE MOST HATE LIST of mine.fakers.fakers.fakers.nvr understand wat is in theirs minds.

the next typesof friend is the one tat stop by to greet when ur help is needed.another pain in the a$$.can u ever imagine tat someone talk to u juz to have the core of benefits.OMG.all theyneed is the ans to their ques and tats almost it.they got wat they wan and they juz leave u behind.yeah.tat friends huh.'friend'.the conversation is like SUX.cause ya juz noe tat they r onli faking it.

haiz.soemtimes i juz wanna tell all those 'friends' to STOP FAKING IT.like my motto juz be urself.dun fake it cause u look bad.put those mask down for a day and JUZ BE URSELF.


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hurray!!!!

yes.finally.my first post on my own blog.i've started it.yeah.i've been telling my friends i will be doing this but its been delayed for like mths.but i do write stuffs tat im going post it up later.i did my homework,k.hahaha.juz finish my mid term today (emm no cause its past midnite so its yesterday). i think i sux at it.so im relaxing myself by doing tis blog.i will be celebrating if my test went well.i thought i did damn badly in my presentation(stutter and forgot my line) but hey my lec is kind afterall.she din juz 'kill' me.and my mock meeting went well.thought of celebrating but when i finish my test.damn.all happiness juz swept off.juz like tat.gosh.BUT watever over is over(juz trying to make myself feel better).ok.tats all for my first post.


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