i wrote tis post wif the same feeling for the post 'the facts are hard to accept'.so tis might be another emo post.ppl are different in alot of ways.some peeps wan to be with their frens all the time(they cant live without their frens) or some can be friendly but sadly they do not have true frens(meet one).
ALL I WANT IS TO BE ALONE.u might say frens are important and im not denying tat.i need frens too but there is times when u wan to shut urself out from the world.tats wat i feel at times and peeps might think tat im angry or im juz being emo.cmon.juz because i need time for myself aint means im bad moods or im being bitchy to be in bad moods.omg.damn shitter.i do not or can i say i dun have to tell u everything tat happen in my life(every details).u dun tell me everything as well.cmon.u will get suprise if u knew from someone else something dat i oso noe then u will like say i din tell u(got wat i mean rite???).shitter.im damn forgetful.not going to deny tat.but again its my fault for not telling u wat happen.ya ya ya.my fault.
u nvr think how i feel when u all talk damn softly in front of me and acting like a 'mice' seeing my stuffs.wtf.i dun even care wif u all but doing tat to me.damn pathetic.and damn shitter.seriously wtf man.i hate it.how can they be like tat.darn.i really wan to confront them but aint doing it cause if i do it means more trouble.damn.so writing in blog is the best place to show wat i feel at times.i seriously hate peeps tat take u for granted.will always say tat i din tell her tis and tat.din discuss wif her.when we discussing u the one dun wan to listen den like to say we make decision without informing u.i really wan to slap and whack u at tat point(everytime u say tat).u can be like nothing happen at a point then u will brought out the issue again when u feel like it.omg.U JUZ LEAVE ME ALONE.i dun owe u anything and dont be a bitch in front of me.dun wear the fucking mask and be different ppl at different times.and another thing is tat its ur business tat u dun have frens.LEAVE ME ALONE.PLZZZZ.
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
the facts are hard to accept...
im seriously very very very down today.i wake up wif the thought of being in THE PRESENT(will post bout tis book when i re read it again).but it aint going my way.omg.wake up and feel absolutely not happy at all.all those stuffs tat happen.its taking the toll out of me.i juz wan some help(i got it later.thank GOD). but it make me look bad for asking them to do stuffs.geez.so its my fault all over again.im damn tired.seriously.
i manage to chat wif my 'mum'.hehe.she is someone i knew a few yrs back.she is one cool 'mum'.haha.the very first time i saw her was when im working as promoter at parkson(every malaccan should noe this place).she start the conversation(im not good in starting one) and the next thing u noe she become my 'mum'.lolx.i enjoy every moment i spend wif them at the fair.i gred tat particular fair as the best place i ever work before(beside fos-i love when i wif the staffs and not during working time.have to be particular in tat).back to chatting wif my 'mum'.she is very tense actually.from wat she wrote in the msn shoutout and her messenger blog(juz realise there is something like tat).she was damn kesian.wif her work and her LECTURER(bluff peeps money).omg.she been through a lot(i think).even though she din tell me anything but she is seriously not happy as i first knew her.come to my mind now wandering when myself work.will i be like my 'mum' or even my sis???they are damn tense.omg.do working life tend to be like tat???i duno.i cant ans tat now cause i dont noe.im scared but worse is coming up
i might not noe wat will happen when i work in the future BUT wat i should worry now is my studies.i realise tat my mid term marks and assignments is out and i kinda sux at it.omg.im seriously seriously very very sad when i saw 'it'.i did try my best on it.i did.i juz duno y tat happen and im sad.my coursemate ask me where u do wrong.I DONT KNOW.i seriously do not noe.i juz wan someone to give me some encouraging words cause i REALLY REALLY NEED ONE.i will call my sis later cause i noe she will make me feel better.did i do badly cause i din study???or i din pay attention???or i juz SUX at it???i dun noe and i dont feel good.
i should be happy cause i will be going home tomolo BUT the sadness of knowing it is making my mood swing.ANYONE OUT THERE CAN HELP ME???JUZ GIVE ME A HELPING HAND CAUSE I REALLY NEED ONE.sob sob.i wanted to cry but not now.i will when im all alone.i really wan to let everything out but im holding back.i will let everything out when i go back melaka.i sure will.
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i manage to chat wif my 'mum'.hehe.she is someone i knew a few yrs back.she is one cool 'mum'.haha.the very first time i saw her was when im working as promoter at parkson(every malaccan should noe this place).she start the conversation(im not good in starting one) and the next thing u noe she become my 'mum'.lolx.i enjoy every moment i spend wif them at the fair.i gred tat particular fair as the best place i ever work before(beside fos-i love when i wif the staffs and not during working time.have to be particular in tat).back to chatting wif my 'mum'.she is very tense actually.from wat she wrote in the msn shoutout and her messenger blog(juz realise there is something like tat).she was damn kesian.wif her work and her LECTURER(bluff peeps money).omg.she been through a lot(i think).even though she din tell me anything but she is seriously not happy as i first knew her.come to my mind now wandering when myself work.will i be like my 'mum' or even my sis???they are damn tense.omg.do working life tend to be like tat???i duno.i cant ans tat now cause i dont noe.im scared but worse is coming up
i might not noe wat will happen when i work in the future BUT wat i should worry now is my studies.i realise tat my mid term marks and assignments is out and i kinda sux at it.omg.im seriously seriously very very sad when i saw 'it'.i did try my best on it.i did.i juz duno y tat happen and im sad.my coursemate ask me where u do wrong.I DONT KNOW.i seriously do not noe.i juz wan someone to give me some encouraging words cause i REALLY REALLY NEED ONE.i will call my sis later cause i noe she will make me feel better.did i do badly cause i din study???or i din pay attention???or i juz SUX at it???i dun noe and i dont feel good.
i should be happy cause i will be going home tomolo BUT the sadness of knowing it is making my mood swing.ANYONE OUT THERE CAN HELP ME???JUZ GIVE ME A HELPING HAND CAUSE I REALLY NEED ONE.sob sob.i wanted to cry but not now.i will when im all alone.i really wan to let everything out but im holding back.i will let everything out when i go back melaka.i sure will.
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Monday, September 15, 2008
yummy!!!
we made these for our senior.look very PRO rite???its even better when u eat them.lolx
was planning to do my home work today BUT promise my fren will be doing sushi today.so went to her house and start doing them.it not really that hard but seriously need technique to make it look nice and easier to cut.i did a few and darn proud to show it out.lolx.it delicious.usually went out to eat sushi but doing it myself???never thought of it.yeah.its cool.
look messy???we did clean them up.lolx.
we prepared one container for our coursemate that went to play badminton(how good we are to prepared food for them) and another container for my senior.she is a great senior.help us alot in our assignment.she spare her times to help us and look through our work.thanx a lot.she feel paiseh to take the sushi but i told her that its a way to show our appreciation for her.she took them and mention tat its delicious.yummy yummy.haha.i eat until very very the full.oh man .until i have difficulty on walking back to my house.gosh.
we went out for dinner as well today.talk a lot of crap.lolx.we juz love to talk nonsense.sometimes it happier to do tat rather than being sad over things tat u cant change at all.y bother all those peeps tat r so obsessed wif themselves.
ps:starting to feel my post to be a little toO anguish and will tone it down wif more happier event(if there is any).forgotten bout one very important stuffs.IM GOING BACK NEXT WEEK AND MY MUM WILL COOK EVERYTHING I WANTED TO EAT.hurray.
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
peeps...
ermm.how am i gonna start dis???have u ever meet someone tat can be good to u at times and juz ignore u the other times???or they juz pretend tat they have nvr noe u???OMG.i think tat others face tat too rite???cmon.admit it.they can be so good till u believe tat we are frens.and peeps can be another person in juz a nick of time.how could they ever i mean ever change tat fast.wow.darn fast.havent meet anyone like tat???i meet them.i mean as a third party i see things.lolx.but its true.u can see things clearly when u r not involved in it.believe me.hehe.
peeps can be kind to u at times and be harsh the other times.they juz act like they are damn good wif u when there isnt anyone around.or they juz think tat u r a pain in the ass when they dun need u.yeah.there are those peeps.i saw those peeps(like i say,third party is always the best).ya ya ya.they treat u good(but remember onli at times).when its all over they dun even bother(at all).i mean wat type of peeps are they.they can be kind to u and another way around juz like tat.whenever they wan.gosh.i juz wanna squeeze them into tiny little papers and throw them away.soli to be tat violent. but those facts make me wan to do tat.geez.
they treat u well and juz a glance i mean only a glance they dun bother anything.haiz.tats sad but its the facts that i saw.i feel bad for those peeps cause i think tat they r onli wearing a mask.they wear it for their whole entire life.why cant those peeps juz be themselves???like wat my bloggie name after 'juz be urself'.i absolutely think tat its important for peeps to act like tat.it will be better for themselves as well as those around them.
ps:its onli a feeling i have when i saw wat happen.not specifying on anyone.but if u feel hurt i mean on wat i wrote then i think u need to change cause u juz might be one of those peeps.
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peeps can be kind to u at times and be harsh the other times.they juz act like they are damn good wif u when there isnt anyone around.or they juz think tat u r a pain in the ass when they dun need u.yeah.there are those peeps.i saw those peeps(like i say,third party is always the best).ya ya ya.they treat u good(but remember onli at times).when its all over they dun even bother(at all).i mean wat type of peeps are they.they can be kind to u and another way around juz like tat.whenever they wan.gosh.i juz wanna squeeze them into tiny little papers and throw them away.soli to be tat violent. but those facts make me wan to do tat.geez.
they treat u well and juz a glance i mean only a glance they dun bother anything.haiz.tats sad but its the facts that i saw.i feel bad for those peeps cause i think tat they r onli wearing a mask.they wear it for their whole entire life.why cant those peeps juz be themselves???like wat my bloggie name after 'juz be urself'.i absolutely think tat its important for peeps to act like tat.it will be better for themselves as well as those around them.
ps:its onli a feeling i have when i saw wat happen.not specifying on anyone.but if u feel hurt i mean on wat i wrote then i think u need to change cause u juz might be one of those peeps.
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
over...
its 11.05pm and i am relaxing rite now.unbelievable rite???believe it.for the first time weeks i manage to relax tis early and juz watch dramas and do stuffs i love.oh man.i miz it.damn a lot.tats y now i can update my blog.few days(i think) i din manage to update.my buddy like keep on asking me when im gonna update(update ad lah)???lolx.
i finish up my final assignment ad which is due on sept19(so early finish.abit tak biasa.lolx).not sure correct or not and need to ask my lec tomolo.finger crossed.hopefully wat we do is correct.u noe how hard izzit to finish AN assignment???geez.but my buddy oso very kesian.she got like thousand of assignment(im a bit over).seriously.a lots.oh man.do assignment till the wee hours.cant sleep.and have to face pc or lappie for like the whole day.damn.i ad
got four eyes and its increasing(in power i mean).haizzz.life.wat the crap.
even though i manage to finish my final assignment BUT my final is around the corner.omg.time flies like crap man.its juz like yesterday i juz start my new sem and now its final ad.oh man.and i got like bukit punya homework.ohhh.help.how am i gonna make it.praying very hard now.will be going back next week(hurray.im thinking of all those foods now.hehe).but i need to stay at home(like i will) to study for my final.sob sob sob.
now is the optimistic time: dun worry.u sure can do it.dun compare urself with others.comparing SUX.so juz do ur very best.believe in urself.u sure can.same goes to u too,buddy.hahaha.
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i finish up my final assignment ad which is due on sept19(so early finish.abit tak biasa.lolx).not sure correct or not and need to ask my lec tomolo.finger crossed.hopefully wat we do is correct.u noe how hard izzit to finish AN assignment???geez.but my buddy oso very kesian.she got like thousand of assignment(im a bit over).seriously.a lots.oh man.do assignment till the wee hours.cant sleep.and have to face pc or lappie for like the whole day.damn.i ad
got four eyes and its increasing(in power i mean).haizzz.life.wat the crap.
even though i manage to finish my final assignment BUT my final is around the corner.omg.time flies like crap man.its juz like yesterday i juz start my new sem and now its final ad.oh man.and i got like bukit punya homework.ohhh.help.how am i gonna make it.praying very hard now.will be going back next week(hurray.im thinking of all those foods now.hehe).but i need to stay at home(like i will) to study for my final.sob sob sob.
now is the optimistic time: dun worry.u sure can do it.dun compare urself with others.comparing SUX.so juz do ur very best.believe in urself.u sure can.same goes to u too,buddy.hahaha.
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Monday, September 8, 2008
sleepy+tired = to how i feel now
tats how i feel now.its 9.15am and proud to say tat i didnt sleep the whole nite.omg.i've been rushing my assignments tat due today.TOTAL OF 3 ASSIGNMENTS TAT ARE DUE TODAY(yeah i mean today).sux.damn tired and my whole head is blank.im having headache rite now.gosh.unbeliveable.i stay up the whole nite for my assignments.im pig tat love to sleep and i make a HUGE i meAN a huge sacrifice.i sacrifice my beautiful sleep for assignments.unbelievable tat i can do tat.oh man.seriously very tired.later 11am got class and need to pass up one assignment.den need time to compile the whole stuffs.damn it.i really really wan my bed. i wan to sleep.sob sob.
btw,im going to the asylum and gonna stay there and do nothing.lolx.
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btw,im going to the asylum and gonna stay there and do nothing.lolx.
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Friday, September 5, 2008
omg...
its 2.51 am and im still awake.noe wat im doing???assignment.yeah.sux dotz.unbelievable i still can update my blog???hahaha.need time to clear my mind.darn tired now and i cant think of anything anymore.my head is blank like a piece of paper.BUT i still have another question to edit when i dun even noe a single thing bout the ques.wat the F@#$ man.geez.i wana go insane ad.im going to the asylum soon if things continue to be like tat.lolx.but seriously darn tired like hell.y can peeps be more considerate in everything???dar.u have things to do and i dont???y dun u tell ur buddy how u feel instead of telling me???wont it be more better if u do tat.i noe y u dun wan to do tat.CAUSE U DUN WAN TO BE THE BADDIE.yeah.i suits the best for the role of baddie.in assignments or even in the house.its cool if ya all dun wan to take tat role.i dun ever mind to be tat.juz hate me.i dun care anymore and i dun give a damn at all.
i still have 3 more to go even after i finish tis.omg.wat a week.after that i have like a MOUNTAIN of homework tat i need to finish up.then later the final arrived again.SUX.i barely get over the feeling of the first sem final and now another one around the corner.gosh.seriously its taking the toll out of me.everything.peeps to things.oh man.can someone lend me a hand and help me to go through tis???i seriously need one rite now.
but its cool.i will get through it no matter how hard it is.all i need is some rest and positive thinking(yeah.law if attraction-i do keep tat in mind.lolx).some rest and everything will be fine again.finger crossed.
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i still have 3 more to go even after i finish tis.omg.wat a week.after that i have like a MOUNTAIN of homework tat i need to finish up.then later the final arrived again.SUX.i barely get over the feeling of the first sem final and now another one around the corner.gosh.seriously its taking the toll out of me.everything.peeps to things.oh man.can someone lend me a hand and help me to go through tis???i seriously need one rite now.
but its cool.i will get through it no matter how hard it is.all i need is some rest and positive thinking(yeah.law if attraction-i do keep tat in mind.lolx).some rest and everything will be fine again.finger crossed.
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Thursday, September 4, 2008
back...
im back.hahaha.din update for the last few days cause im back in my hometown(dun get jealous) and seriously darn busy.assignment assignment assignment.till i wanna die ad.geez.got one assignment tat i need to pass up on fri and another 3(yeah i mean 3) that we need to pass up on mon.omg.and one of them i got the hardest question.oh man.i been reading the study case for like thousand of times.oh geez.finger cross.everything will be just fine.hopefully.
ok.back to wat i've been through for the past few days.i become a part time tutor.hahaha.unbelievable but believe it.i might not be tat qualified to become one but i did do my best.my lil bro say im good(yeah.onli trying to make me happy).lolx.and i go back hometown.hahaha.happy giler.go back makan then sleep.its a routine.darn.so enjoying back home.
despite all those happy stuffs there are still bitches that piss me off.not gonna say who are they cause i dun think its necessary to say it out here.BUT i dont owe anything to ya all.so stop acting like i owe u million or even trillions.damn it.i dun think i deserve it.im juz being kind to ask u tat.im not the one tat piss u off.so stop bitching in front of me CAUSE i HATE it so much until i feel like slapping u then man.fuck off lah.the other one oso act like i owe her millions.wat the heck.and yeah.when i forgot tell ya something,im at fault AGAIN.damn.peeps are forgetful man.if others is not then i aint going to deny tat im forgetful.so stop acting like its my job to tell ya everything.when u tell me things at tis points i might forget it minutes later.darn.my fault again to be forgetful.watever.i dun give a damn at all.BUT im gonna stress once and for all DUN BITCH IN FRONT OF ME.i aint those chick tat juz keep my mouth shut.
even though there are those unhappy stuffs but i still think tat im happy cause i manage to go back hometown and enjoy every moment of it with my family and buddies.lolx.
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ok.back to wat i've been through for the past few days.i become a part time tutor.hahaha.unbelievable but believe it.i might not be tat qualified to become one but i did do my best.my lil bro say im good(yeah.onli trying to make me happy).lolx.and i go back hometown.hahaha.happy giler.go back makan then sleep.its a routine.darn.so enjoying back home.
despite all those happy stuffs there are still bitches that piss me off.not gonna say who are they cause i dun think its necessary to say it out here.BUT i dont owe anything to ya all.so stop acting like i owe u million or even trillions.damn it.i dun think i deserve it.im juz being kind to ask u tat.im not the one tat piss u off.so stop bitching in front of me CAUSE i HATE it so much until i feel like slapping u then man.fuck off lah.the other one oso act like i owe her millions.wat the heck.and yeah.when i forgot tell ya something,im at fault AGAIN.damn.peeps are forgetful man.if others is not then i aint going to deny tat im forgetful.so stop acting like its my job to tell ya everything.when u tell me things at tis points i might forget it minutes later.darn.my fault again to be forgetful.watever.i dun give a damn at all.BUT im gonna stress once and for all DUN BITCH IN FRONT OF ME.i aint those chick tat juz keep my mouth shut.
even though there are those unhappy stuffs but i still think tat im happy cause i manage to go back hometown and enjoy every moment of it with my family and buddies.lolx.
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