the facts are hard to accept...

im seriously very very very down today.i wake up wif the thought of being in THE PRESENT(will post bout tis book when i re read it again).but it aint going my way.omg.wake up and feel absolutely not happy at all.all those stuffs tat happen.its taking the toll out of me.i juz wan some help(i got it later.thank GOD). but it make me look bad for asking them to do stuffs.geez.so its my fault all over again.im damn tired.seriously.

i manage to chat wif my 'mum'.hehe.she is someone i knew a few yrs back.she is one cool 'mum'.haha.the very first time i saw her was when im working as promoter at parkson(every malaccan should noe this place).she start the conversation(im not good in starting one) and the next thing u noe she become my 'mum'.lolx.i enjoy every moment i spend wif them at the fair.i gred tat particular fair as the best place i ever work before(beside fos-i love when i wif the staffs and not during working time.have to be particular in tat).back to chatting wif my 'mum'.she is very tense actually.from wat she wrote in the msn shoutout and her messenger blog(juz realise there is something like tat).she was damn kesian.wif her work and her LECTURER(bluff peeps money).omg.she been through a lot(i think).even though she din tell me anything but she is seriously not happy as i first knew her.come to my mind now wandering when myself work.will i be like my 'mum' or even my sis???they are damn tense.omg.do working life tend to be like tat???i duno.i cant ans tat now cause i dont noe.im scared but worse is coming up

i might not noe wat will happen when i work in the future BUT wat i should worry now is my studies.i realise tat my mid term marks and assignments is out and i kinda sux at it.omg.im seriously seriously very very sad when i saw 'it'.i did try my best on it.i did.i juz duno y tat happen and im sad.my coursemate ask me where u do wrong.I DONT KNOW.i seriously do not noe.i juz wan someone to give me some encouraging words cause i REALLY REALLY NEED ONE.i will call my sis later cause i noe she will make me feel better.did i do badly cause i din study???or i din pay attention???or i juz SUX at it???i dun noe and i dont feel good.

i should be happy cause i will be going home tomolo BUT the sadness of knowing it is making my mood swing.ANYONE OUT THERE CAN HELP ME???JUZ GIVE ME A HELPING HAND CAUSE I REALLY NEED ONE.sob sob.i wanted to cry but not now.i will when im all alone.i really wan to let everything out but im holding back.i will let everything out when i go back melaka.i sure will.


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