EXAM coming..

exam coming ar.but i aint studying just yet.suppose to come back to study(but i didnt).sigh.i juz knew that i wont study when im here BUT i juz want to come back.hehe.need to buck up and start studying.NEED TOO.HAVE TOO.omg.my life is in this circle.exam->studies->exam->studies.this will only end when i graduate(which is in another 3++ years.i think).i dont even know when will i graduate(i mean the exact time).haha.

anyway,i will starts exam on 5 jan and end at 10 jan.in only a week everything i studies for the last two months are all covered.gosh.scary.but hopefully i can go through it.cause i believe in life,everything happen in a circle.we are juz doing everything over and over again.BUT enjoy the process as it will better each time.trust me(positive thinking.wakaka)



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i'm finally HOME...

hurray.like the title goes "im HOME".finally.after a few weeks there finally im back.suppose to be a study week but whatever it is im darn happy.might starts exam once i go back but i will darn happy when i go back there.lolx.cause im longing to come back for so long.at least i can rest and everything.juz enjoy myself here or can i say again.but i still need to study.final around the corner(on 5th jan to 10jan).haizz.but i have my exam on the first and last day of the examination week(again.last sem and this sem is the same).sigh.but hey dun think too much.juz enjoy the moment i have here and i sure will study hard.my very best.gambatte neh.

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SANTA CLAUSE IS COMING TO TOWN!!!HOHO...

merry christmas.hoho.this year christmas is spent at cyber home.sad.i din went to anywhere except dinner at old town.sigh.spent my time watching stuffs that i downloaded.laughing all by myself.sms-ing.yeah.thats all.my christmas is spent juz like that.even though i dun really celebrate christmas BUT its still one of the day of the year that i enjoy.wakaka.anyway,im going back tomorrow.hurray.i cant wait for the day to come.hehe.BUT everything is dampen when i thought of the stupid thing i have done.damn sad wei.geez.hopefully i can manage to fix it tomorrow.praying hard to God now.plz.plz be mercy to me.




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sleepy...

its 3.20 am now.damn tired and i havent sleep cause im rushing the assignment that i need to pass up tomolo.and i can finally say im done with it.there are still a few that need to written but i will juz do it in class tomolo.hehe.really veyr tired and sleep.and tomlo got a 9am class.dead.but no worries.im going home on 26 dec.wakaka.




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3+1=???

do you know what does 3+1=??? means???ok.besides that equals to 4.for me there is another meaning behind it.that is MAHJONG.lolx.yesterday me and my roomie went to FB gathering.eat steamboat.wow.very very delicious and nice.i can feel the bond that we have.like laughing together.talking together.not bad feeling.should have more this type of gathering.hehe.

back to my mahjong topic.got a call that they kurang one kaki.so when i reach home at around 11something(pm that is) i have a bath and i head to the Star house.i played with the CEO of both Fernando Corporation and TQA and one GArfield(you know who you are if you read this).The start didnt play and i feel kinda bad cause we played at her house but she didnt get to play.but she teach Garfield how to play.hehe.playing until 3something and we have a crazy idea.we wanted to play the whole night.we all agree.and we play till 6am.omg.unbelievable.everyone is so into it that we do not wan to leave the table.lolx.my mum will say if my seriousness in playing mahjong can be put into my studies.hmmm.if only i couls.lmao.




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selfish peeps...

there are seriously some peeps that are very very pathetic and selfish.damn.even though we aint in the same line it doesnt mean that ya all wan me to die rite.BUT im afraid that they wan that.darn.like one of the lyrics that goes "i see your true colour".i really did see ya all true colour.useless and selfish peeps. f@#k off.but its never too late to see that.i did try my very best to help out but what the heck do i get in return.nothing but mocking.shit.i hate it man.but in this world there sure will be this type of peeps.unbelievable.i juz gonna live through it.trust me.i sure will.




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my lovely day is RUINED...

i forgotteb to update my blog yesterday because i CANT on9.thats why.so im making up by today.hehe.today was supposed to be one good day.extremely good day cause i skip class.wakaka.hmmm.but its totally ruined by someone.damn.its ad been a very long week.assignments and meeting(again).but got piss by someone.making me to look like a bitch that is so not understanding.the use of words and tone by that fella really make me piss me off.fuck off lah.pathetic.its totally ok that you wan to make me look bad.i dont mind cause im not really a good person either.wakaka.BUT it juz piss me off that fella misunderstand what im saying and turn it to make me look like a baddie.even though im not really a good person but i still not that bad lah."you see.i told you she will be like that".omg.its juz a very good intention but it become bad juz like tat.darn.haizz.really fucking piss me off.back off!!!



ps:thinking again,i dun really angry anymore cause i dont think its worthy at all:p




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still rushing...sigh...

posting again.i finally pass my part to my fren.but i truly believe i will be ask to edit them again.haizzz.very tired.cannot rest cause still got another 2 more assignment to go.sigh.then exam oso coming ad.damn.havent start studying oso.others have been very very hardworking.while me still lazing around.haizzz.will buck up cause I NEED TOO.but nvm.everything will be juz fine once i go home on 26dec.wakakaka:p



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rushing for assignmnet PART 2

till now i havent sleep(yet).juz finish one of my assignment.but i truly believe that i still got a lot of editing need to be done.sigh.still got a lot of stuffs need to be done.still got meeting.i still got 2 more assignment to go and the deadline is coming real soon.i havent even started yet.darn.i oso very long didnt do my tutorial ad.damn.im doom for good.hmmm.but nvm.u sure can finsish them in time.no worries.hehe.u sure can do it(words of encouragement for myself.wakaka).gambatte.btw,im anticipating the DAY to come when i can go back HOME:p

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rushing assignments...

im posting again.haizz.in the midst of rushing my assignment.a lot need to be done.googling looking for the stuffs that suits.omg.reading too many words till my head turning ad.oh man.my dateline will be tomorrow night but i have meeting again tomorrow.shit.damn.which means i need to finish my part by today.in another words,im not going to sleep early again.sigh.i so lack of sleep.wait till i go back melaka and will hibernate till i like.wakaka.

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hoho..

this will be the month that i have the most posts.hurray!!!lolx.hmmm.the day pass without i realising it.another long day.i got tonnes of assignment and home work need to be done.omg.im so dead.stop rushing me.i will try my best to finish up my part.i promise.i did try my best but ermm juz give me a little more.i promise i will do my best.

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F@#K oOF!!!

i juz realise(today i mean yesterday) that some peeps  juz come and find you when they need you.other than that they dont even bother to even talk to you.damn.i have those peeps around me.haizz.they are being sell fish(ya know what i mean) AGAIN!!!omg.very disgusting.unimagineable.i wanted to puke when i talk to them.geez.they juz piss me off.i hate those peeps man.shitter.darn.how can someone act like that???i mean juz like that???hmmm.can be really good towards u when they need ya and juz kick ya aside when they dont.or they can even act like they like you juz right on ur face.i hate those peeps even more.FAKERS.stop being that and stop acting in front of others.I HATE IT.they are juz being 'beaches' and jerks around me.i seriously wanna whack their head and wake them up.wtf(its been really long i din say this word but they force me.damn).juz back off.i hate YOU.fU@k 00F.

pS:another negative post but i promise it will be better tomorrow.wakaka.juz wanna release my dissatisfication

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another day pass where i dont feel emo...

another day pass.listening to mamma mia's(ost of the movie) songs,browsing the net for articles,watching horror movie,updating my bloggie.doing it all at once(im good in multi tasking).lolx.been a very very steady day.nt emo today even though it rains.the flash of the lightning and sound of the thunder is scary.its darn loud.until u can feel that i gonna hitting something.but i still feel the warmth that it brings.nt like the other day when im totally down and helpless.its going to be better;-)

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opss!!!

i didnt post for yesterday so im making up by posting 2 today.hehe.cause im damn tired when i reach home yesterday.another long day.tired like hell.but its fun:) everything is fine until i receive an sms that seriously piss me off.but other than that it is totally one fine day.hehe.

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another day...

everything seems ok.but there are some 'beaches' and jerks that piss me off.damn.wtf.they juz spoilt my mood.darn.looking forward for a very good day but it juz turn bad.haizz.i really wanted to whack them.shits.how can peeps be so selfish???omg.i oso got my finger lebam.omg.painful man.haizz.and presentation oso sux.darn.i really sux at that.omg.and tomolo is my real presentation wif sketch.damn.im doom for good.

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happy???

im asked to post every single day for the next 7days with lesser negative thoughts.hmmm.well.it started quite well today cause im happy:) no bad thoughts at all till now.hehe.but busy with assignments and presentation.apart from that everything is cool.BUT i seriously think that its difficult to stay positive all the times.maybe thats what i need to learn.i still have a long way to go to understand that but today is a good start to achive that.hehe.

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raining...

its raining heavily now.it makes me feel worse.i try not to be too depress but i cant help it.help me.anyone out there can give me a hand???i seriously need one now.i really wanna cry out loud but tears are not streaming down my face.i dont understand why.haizzz.

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EMO+DEPRESS

seriously not in the mood at all to do anything.thats why i skip class today.juz stay at home.and didnt talk much at all.i juz dont know what else to say or can i say who else can i talk too.no one.im kinda depress.i juz dont know what got into me.i juz feel like im all by myself.alone in a place that i never knew.hmmm.im seriously very depress and down.damn emo today.

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happy yet sad...

its a total mix feeling.i reach melaka on sat noon around four to five cause its damn jam.im so happy cause i finally manage to go back.home sweet home.hehe.when i reach home,the first thing i do is looking for food(even though i ad eat in kl.lolx).i walk up and down.from the living room to the kitchen's fridge.i ate chocolate and i got scolded cause i have sore throat.even though i got a scolding for eating that but im seriously very happy cause im finally home.wakaka.i very good cause i didnt went out.i juz stay at home.watching tv and EAT.lolx.i slept very comfortably and i woke up very late the next day(around 12 to 1).woke up and eat again(tats y im a pig.hoho).do nothing.i juz laze around.love it,

went out wif sin girl and xiao de on sun night(ling at jb while hoon out wif her frens).even though its raining but we still went out.haha.firstly we went to KFC(eat again.damn.BUT im happy.lolx) then we went to dataran's mcd to have mcflurry.hehe.then we went to EYE ON MALAYSIA but its ad very late and they are closing.sigh.so we juz sits in the car eating and fei.me and sin girl didnt plan to go back that early.we ask xiao de to fetch us to ozana(cause i dunno where izzit).we were unwinding the windows and let the rains hit our hand.its painful.the rains are like thorns.painful but a worthy experiance(we are insane).besides,me and sin girl were so stress that we shout from bukit katil till ozana(we did stop mid way to get some breath.lol).wow.nice experiance.its like letting everything out.whatever u dont like.whatever that bother you.everything juz gone.we like 2 emo peeps letting everything out(we are emo).we were thinking we might be thrown with stuffs cause we are disturbing keamanan waktu malam.hehe.but its fun.we really do crazy stuffs that night.

and times flies.its mon ad.i need to come back cyber(there things need to be done).omg.happy stuffs are short lived.damn.im so reluctant to come back here(im ad in cyber when i post this.sigh).what else can i say.nothing but feeling a bit piss when i reach here,haizzz.communication between peeps sometimes are so difficult to interpret.damn.i really wanna whack them.they never knew how i felt and starts making the conclusion im the bitch.juz fuck off lah.damn.im so pissed.leave me alone.whatever.i dont live to make others happy.I LIVE TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY AND TAKNG CARE OF MY FAMILY.others juz back off,thank you:p

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im all alone

i juz come back from my breeze walk.i've been walking for an hour or so.i've been thinking a lot.as im walking along the street listening to my favourite songs on my phone,im all alone.alone.i tend to love to be alone.alone in my own world.listening to the music i love.doing the stuffs i adore.but i juz dun feel it when im walking alone here in cyber.all i think off is only my family.i juz wan to go home(melaka) to be with them.the feeling of emptiness.lonesome.not everyone can feel it.and i admit that im homesick.im all by myself in the world i never wanted to be in but i have to.its been almost half year and more but i still feel this.imagine im gonna be here for another 3 years.unimagineable.when i gonna stop feeling this.am i such a baby to feel that???hmmm.no idea.if only someone can help me to answer that.


Alone
Living
On a
New place that are
Erratic



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fakers...

forgotten whether have i or havent i post one with this title.but anyway,i began to see properly some peeps are acting like that.totally disgusting.ewww.unbelieveable.why are there still fakers???why???why???why???i kenot accept it.juz like the name of my blog-JUZ BE URSELF.dont pretend.i hate it.especially when it happen in front of me.omg.i really kenot tahan.how can someone be a different person at a different time.never understand that.wearing the mask everyday in their lifes.oh gosh.if im the one wearing the mask,i will suffocate till i die.but they never will.when will they be who there are and never be afraid to show them out???hmmm.the ans will be only reveal when they woke up




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waves...

waves.do you know how waves is made???i juz google it and juz realize its not as easy as i thought off.all scientific terms.i dont really get it but i know how it is made.am i confusing you???hope not.i wrote tis when im camping at sg congkak.how i feel.here it goes...

i was sitting alone on the rock and day dreaming.everyone is busy.i duno what i can do.i mean nobody at our station so i cant help but too day dream.hehe.sitting there playing with the water.i saw the waves.pop up in my mind how waves are created.i dunno.sitting there thinking.realize that some waves are rough while some are smooth.just come up in my mind that one's life is like that as well.we go through good and bad times in lifes.when you go through some happy moments the you should enjoy the very moments.live happily at tat moment cause sometimes happy moments never come twice.BUT if you are facing the down part of your life,never be afraid.cause everyone have to go through that.its part of life.dont think that life is not fair cause you never knew who else have gone through the pains that you have.might even be thousand times worse than yours.you might even learn a thing or two there.you never knew.in one's life,there will be the ups and downs.nothing is perfect.its just like the waves.the happy moments will be the smooth part while the unhappy moments will be the rough part.but eventually it will flow to the ocean ant it will be calm again.

ps:i truly believe that everything happen for a reason.just embrace whatever happen whether it is good or bad.life is good.live it.lolx.



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