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HSS.something i created to go with how i feel right now.it just pop in my mind.hmmm.
do all of you have it when you leave home with the thought that you never know when will you go back again???hmmm.some might have it and some dont.and i am one of them that will have it so here are a few HSS characteristics that i knew or can i say face:
- getting sad for no reason a few days before the time to go back
- feel that the time flies like winds
- think that the days are really short when they are spent at home
- starting to miss parents,siblings even though you are still there with them
- do not have any mood to study
- regret that didnt spent much time at home
- regret that didnt help much at home
- regret that didnt communicate much with family members(facing the tv or lappie more than facing family members)
- try the hardest to delay the time to go back
- CRY when its time to go
- feel empty when you reach the place you never want to come back
- feel emotional
- feel tense
- feel tired
- feel alone
- feel like its the END
- feel like the days here is slow
- feel like shutting yourself from everyone
- wandering if there is a secret place where you will be happy
- wandering if ONLY i can stay at home
- wandering if ONLY i can feel better
im having HSS now.damn emo and i dont know how to face them tomorrow.they gonna start nagging and nagging and nagging.LEAVE ME ALONE.plzzzz.
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some crap call me and tell me things that kinda piss me off.wtf.darn.i hate those peeps.will find you if they need your help and just leave you alone when they dont need to.this type of peeps better dont come near me.or can i say DONT talk to me.i hate this type of peeps.thinking you are so popular and everyone will go gaga over you.plzzz lah.stp acting like you are so 'famous'.i HATE it.you FAKERS.
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part of the view where i have my meal.
i spent my whole day in campus.started off badly cause last minute class cancel.darn.so which means a waste of time going there so early but in another way its good cause i got more time to study.start studying around 1++.and sit there and study till i feel hungry.hehe.went to the mini market to buy kerepek and roti and one mentos.then i walk around looking for a place to finish up my roti.so i went to fom(3floor.the very end balcony).i sit there and kinda nice.cause its kinda quite and im all alone.rocks.hoho.start to eat my roti and read my slides.while i was reading and eating as well,i saw an IS(international student) went to his car and starts his car.i was waiting for him to drive off but he didnt.even after a few cars took off but he is still there.finally he came out of his car and went in the building again.curious on what exactly is he thinking.hmmm.nvr know.
while i was eating and reading,someone talk to me.here goes the conversation
mR.A :&^#@$&
banana: pardon?
mR.A : (repeat) do you like the scenery here??
banana: yes.i do(smiling)
and mR.A went off smiling to my reply.he must think im a weirdo.sitting there aall alone.hoho.i am a weirdo.then another conversation starts
ms.B :you dont feel hot??
banana: nope.not really(smiling again)
ms.B went off as well smiling too.then here come mR.C.he didnt talk to me but he just look suprised im there(i mean his eyes are wide open).haha.maybe its weird that im sitting alone there with foods and papers.people just turn curious.haha.before i leave i took a few pic.its actually not bad.the place.its quite,suits me a lot.
after that i continue sticking my butts in the library till the time when i post this.for the very first time.hoho.
will be my place of zen.place of peace.
ps:everything went well until they gave me that b**** look.wtf.spoilt my day.
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everything seems so dark.i cant think of anything.i really wanted to study and im darn scared of my quiz tomorrow and my mid term on wednesday.but i just cant seems to get myself to study.i cant buck up and start studying.i just cant.omg.im so dead.dead for good.
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guess what im doing right now at this moment when im posting this(of course beside typing for this post),im watching drama.what the heck.im having a quiz on tues and audit midterm on wed.AND IM NOT STUDYING.i wan to whack myself.i wanted someone to tell me to study.to ask me to study.i just cant concentrate myself.i just dont feel like studying.i just want to watch dramas and cant wait to go back HOME.in another words im in holiday mode.sux.i cant help.so im staying back tomorrow at campus and hopefully i will start studying.
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went through hell of obstacles to write this post.switch on my lappie again because i feel like writing a post.the line SUX that i have to restart the modem.oh man.i just feel like posting something now at this time(2.18am.according to my phone time).havent slept just yet even though im preparing.out of sudden i just feel lonely(yet again).sitting alone typing this post in the living room.its quite except for the sound of the clock ticking.tick tick tick tick.every seconds follow by every minutes and it just continue ticking without stopping.and so my life just continue with the ticking sound.every seconds follow by every minutes.oh man.im seriously down for no reason.maybe there is a reason why im like that.get a life.i will be happy again in another 7days.i sure will survive it.i sure will get through it.hopefully.
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im having a few posts continuously.haha.too much to be written here.at this time when i wrote this post,i just reach cyberjaya not long ago.finish unpacking and finish bathing.and now updating my bloggie.this is what i wrote when im in the bus coming back to kuala lumpur.
"im leaving melaka again.haizz.gonna have to wait till my mid term break before i can go back again(20th march leh).so long.but its ok.it will be over shortly because too many things need to be finished up.will be having my audit mid term on next wed and far2 quiz next tues.sigh.oh ya.and i have to finish up my fsa assignment like ASAP.and have to start my other assignments.drop dead.hopefully i can finish it up."
thats how i feel when im in the bus.insane right???haizzz.hopefully eveyrthing will runs smoothly.
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some say my bloggie is kinda confusing with the use of colours.some say my bloggie is emo.and some say that my bloggie have too many words and lack of pictures.hmmm.well,i love black and the colour that i choose are those colour that attract me at the times when i wanted to write which ever posts.for the emo part,i cant deny that I AM EMO.nah.its just how i feel at that particular time.so most of the times i do feel emo BUT i will try to reduce them.wish me luck.and bout the pictures just give me some time to bluetooth them and i'll starts writing.promise.
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